Finally something goes our way :0)

Well it has taken me 7 months but we have finally found a childminder for Imogen WOOHOO!

Since last July she has been in the nursery where I work and to be honest it’s been great, she’s really settled in and seems to like it.

The problem? Well I work an hour away from home which isn’t much of a commute for me but I start at 8am so poor Imogen is being woken at 6.30am, dressed and put into a car to sit for an hour strapped into a chair she doesn’t really want to be in and that’s on a good day! When the traffic is bad or there is an accident…..well you can imagine!

It also means should she be ill or need to be collected early for some reason there is only me available and I would have to leave work to collect her (probably the one thing I don’t mind about the arrangement!)

Also the days I have her with me I have to work later hours because of the opening times of the nursery so I can go back to finishing earlier again :0)

AND…..its slightly cheaper :0)

So we now have a local childminder for the two days she is normally in nursery which means Chris can drop her off on his way to work and I can collect on my way home, far easier for everyone including Imogen.

A months notice has been given to the nursery this morning.

I just hope she settles in ok…..

Suggestions please!

My sister in law as some of you will know had a baby boy 8 weeks before we had Imogen and we have been attempting to share the childcare.

She had a baby girl a month ago and yester day was the first time Imogen has gone to her Aunties since a few weeks before the baby was born, the plan being for everyone to try and get back into routine and back to normal.

The first day didn’t go great; Imogen was more than happy playing with Jack as usual but every time my sister in law picked up baby Chloe to either change or feed her Imogen became hysterical. This continued until my brother in law came home from work, once there was another adult in the house Imogen didn’t seem to mind anyone picking the baby up.

Today is day two and unfortunately has been worse than the first, for the morning Imogen has been more hysterical than yesterday and for longer periods.

At one point my poor sister in law had Jack and Imogen in highchairs for their lunch, she picked Chloe up, Imogen started screaming and Jack threw his lunch up everywhere….

My mother in law has collected Imogen this afternoon to give my sister in law a break and has taken her out shopping, apparently she is back to her normal happy self.

The problem is that she is now going to think if she kicks off enough Grandma will take her out but she is too young for us to either talk to her about it properly or punish her for being “naughty”

I’m really worried that my sister in law is going to decide she doesn’t want to look after Imogen anymore, I mean who would blame her, her children are both behaving lol

How do you teach a 15 month old to chill the f**k out?????

12 Week Scan

Everything is fine :0)

God i love my daughter :0)

Just a quick update...

We are pregnant again :0)

Due in September Woohoo!

More to come soon x

and more bad news...

We lost the baby.

The good and the bad...

Sometimes Chris and I wonder if it was a bad idea us getting together, we have had so much thrown at us since we met, within the first three months of us being together I had been made redundant, lost my dad and Chris had lost his house.
Things have never really changed since then, it has always been one thing after another, when we returned from our honeymoon we were told Chris’s dad had cancer, he underwent a massive operation but nearly dies in intensive care on several occasions during the following weeks.
Chris’s Nanna had a spell of collapsing and being taken to hospital at the same time as this so we spent quite a lot of time visiting different hospitals.

Of course we also had some good things, I fell pregnant and we had Imogen who is amazing (yes I’m biased lol), my sister-in-law had a little boy around the same time who we love to bits also.

Niece Claire has lived with us a number of times, each time driving us mad but improving with each return, she’s with at the moment but is looking to move out and this last time has been fairly hassle free.

I have to say though this last 6 months has been the worst ever, in March Nanna became ill, was taken into hospital to have her bowel unblocked and it was discovered she also had cancer.

In July it became clear the end was close, the family gathered to sit with her and say their goodbyes.
On the Monday evening Chris’s mum and her partner went home to shower and change, they were met by the police who told them her partner’s son had been found dead in his flat. He was only 40 years old; his kidneys had just stopped working.
On the Tuesday afternoon Chris’s uncle left us with Nanna to go home and shower and change, when he got home he died of a massive heart attack.
In the early hours of Wednesday morning Nanna slipped peacefully away.

Two weeks later Chris’s dad who had been told he had 12 months to live in January began to get poorly, He sadly passed away at the beginning of September.

I don’t know how but Chris has coped amazingly, I am so proud of him.



On Monday this week we discovered we are going to have another baby!
Its VERY early days, I will be due the end of May.
It almost feels wrong to be happy about it after this past year but we are, we have something new to look forward to, maybe now I’ll be posting more, I haven’t known what to say its all been so awful.
So be happy for us guys, we have a little spark of happiness in the midst of a year of hell and please please send me Boy vibes, that would just be perfect :0)